everything is going according to God’s plan.
(i was) lying on my bed thinking, seemingly wasting time, but i won’t move. i realized this is what i should have done a long time ago, press the pause button. [][] let the body rest. and let the mind work. for once, stop moving forward towards nowhere. there is nothing there but vanity. in vain. trust me.
you wake up each morning with the purpose to keep your eyes open because there’s no sense in keeping it closed until you’re tired. what really have you accomplished?
cobwebs overhead. now, should i sweep them? why? cleaner. is that what you want? no. i just want to appreciate those cobwebs over me. that sense of satisfaction in accomplishment.
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listen to the song
creeping to your head
was there something wrong
with words that were said
spiders in your head
cobwebs beneath your bed
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after waiting for some time…
… there are no directions(?) after all(?)
you have to make them(??)
on my bed, in my head.
or just wait some more.
all you have are just the principles
but where are you heading?
what should you do?
is waiting okay?
and while you are waiting?
think? write? draw? study? plan? nothing?
waiting is wasting for people like me.
ooo
unfortunately, waiting forever
literally meant forever.
no one can wait that long.
ooo
i guess…
it’s time for me to fix things
leave nothing to chance.
it’s not for me to close doors
neither should i open them.
ooo
magaling ka. pero alam mo bang gamitin?
wala sa pag-aaral ang mga lessons ng buhay.
ooo
there were simply no secrets to unveil. no mysteries worth exploring.
plans? i don’t make plans. i just follow orders.
before me was a door. where it leads to i don’t know. attempts were made to enter but to no avail. it wasn’t a bother neither was i curious enough. there just wasn’t a reason to remember… or forget. it just stood there as i stood there. waiting. knowing time will tell.
ooo
options:
A. wait
B. there is no plan B.
C. don’t wait
D. just wait
ooo
what a stressful life! this medicine is. ah. i don’t remember asking for this. far from what i imagined. or because i did not imagine anything before. up until now. i just don’t know what lies ahead, that’s all. not that i’m complaining. do i have a choice. fate has brought me here. there is no other way but this direction. to the death! i salute you.
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what do we do now?
after seeing all there is to see… it’s becoming more excitingly–depressing. frustration.
the story is so engrossing you can no longer wait for more. we must start making stories of our own.
but i can’t move in my current state.
secrets.–talents. abilities. skills.
quest.–search. discover. invent.
mission.–pass the boards.
ooo
the board exam is a joke–
(if you failed it, it was a bad joke;)
(if you pass it, now that’s a good one!)
joke joke joke!
failing it makes it a terrible joke;
passing it makes it a good one!
does anyone deserve to pass?
if so, does he deserve to take the test?
well lad, you deserve the exam….
ooo
PATIENCE…a little more…time.
WAIT. (deep breathing) close your world. SHUT. OFF. (fade to black)