how i wish it were not a waste to see the beauty of a blank paper perish for nothing. at this precise moment… i found myself wasted. i am in a dilemma with the current condition. first, cannot digest the lecture, it is too fast. second, i cannot take down notes for the same reason. i am listening in futility, i will forget the salient points. i cannot depart totally from listening, i might miss the little i might gain. but the little i gain means nothing at all, nothing that can be of great help.
it would be nice to record the events currently happening: the lecturer talking too fast, giving too much information, the students who cannot grasp the subject, those with blank stares or otherwise unconscious presently, those who take down notes copied down from the projection, i doubt they understood, those students preoccupied with… at the moment, after giving up on the lecture,….
i can’t help wonder where i would get the next copy of the lecture. reading books would be nice, but that won’t be of much help in my quiz. besides, i do not have the time to open them. notes are the most basic source of grades. unfortunately, i am deprived of a good set. i cannot continue relying on my classmates’ notes. besides, it is not a good situation to be in with the classmates i have. they don’t understand and they never will. but i cannot blame them, and i won’t take it against them.
i have set in my mind a solution. if i only had a laptop…. a laptop would be nice!
my problem is not so much with studying as much as having the right materials to study to begin with. these materials are hard to obtain, and usually i (you) can’t obtain a complete set. nobody wants their notes xeroxed a day or two prior to the quiz. yet most quiz coverage include that precious day or two.
again. intro. napag isip isipan ko, i-publish ko lahat ng mahanap ko na ‘writings’ sa mga old notes ko. usually, gamit ko na notebook sa school ay corona. yup, ung 60 pages. no matter how i tried to be strict with its contents to be purely academic, i almost always end up writing comments all over my notebook. in the end, mas maganda ang kinalabasan. binabalik balikan ko mga notebook ko hanggang ngayon for these treasures! my precious! parang salamin kasi kung paano ako mag isip noon. at ngayon. anyway, marami tuloy akong blue book. isa lang to sa madami.