this is my november. my era begins. cold november.
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i will be your armor
i will be your shield
i will be your freedom
i will be your wings
i will be your power
i will be your heart.
ooo
it feels like for centuries i have been fighting this feeling. i have always been winning. it feels like an empty victory after all.
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i am very much disappointed with a lot of things. last year was disappointing. this is year is very much disappointing so far. she is very disappointing. i am a big disappointment. thirty years is a disappointment. my work is disappointing. my business is becoming a disappointment. my dreams look disappointing. but i tell myself it's how i deal with disappointment that is more important.
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i watched the social network on my own today. and i reflected on my similar situation. here i was with a dream worth billions. it feels like i'm the only one who knows and believes this. i need someone to guide me. i asked myself what do i really need right now. capital.