si jik nga pala

sya nga pala, si jik. *edited*

pagkatapos

alam ko na kung bakit naka advertise ang blog ko. naka-superfriendster mode pala ako. hello there. bali wala na sa akin.
namimiss ko na ang aking kama sa baguio, ang managinip ng gising, na parang hindi gumagalaw ang oras. nakakamiss na rin ang aking mga kabarkada. kung nasaan man sila nagkalat.
ngayong araw, pinakinggan ko ang binili ko na cd, 45 pesos lang. the best of sugarfree. nakarelate talaga ako.
unang araw — "…unang araw na wala ka na…" huh. tama ba nadinig ko? hmm…
kwentuhan — "…kwentuhan lang naman, wala namang masama. uusap lang, dahil gusto kita…
makilala, makasama… makasama"
prom — "…pwede ba kitang tabihan, kahit na meron ka nang ibang kasama…"
hari ng sablay — "…" basta, un.
at kung ano ano pa. pirated nga lang. tipid. alam ko. ako lang makarelate. sabi ko nga.
paunawa, laging tandaan: para naman sa akin ito, nakikibasa lang kayo.

save the queen

forget justice. save the nation. that’s what i hear most people say. anyway, they will always be that way. i disagree.
heads must roll. even if all heads must roll.
compromise. that’s what they seek. that’s the best we could do. that’s why i hate politicians. politics is fine, it is an art. but the present politicians are another matter. they are supposed to be the present ‘craftsmen’ of the ‘art’. how i hate their works. they destroy the ‘art’.
so half the nation wants her out. half wants her to stay. numbers don’t matter. let the guilty be tried. even if it means all of them.
taking her out would mean more hardships for our country. letting her stay would be easier for us. but i know they are guilty, we know they are guilty. it makes me hate this country even more. no one has the guts to stand up for what is right anymore.
forget justice. our survival comes first. that’s what i hear them say.

haynaku

masyadong madrama nga! di ko napansin nagpapadala pala ng e-mail sa mga friends kada update ko. ahihihi! kainis. pasensya na sa spam mail. parang di ko kasi mahanap ung settings para ma-off yun. hindi naman ganito noon ah.. o ganito na?! sige, basa na lang kayo, wala lang lalabas. atin atin na lang. pls? sige.

in summary

and so i fell in love. then there were the conflicts, the barriers.
was it worth fighting for?
primarily it did not stand the test of faith. should i fight against the principles i stood for?
she belonged to someone else. should i fight against the norms of society?
our worlds are far apart. should i fight against fate?
then there was the uncertainty of what she knew and felt. should it have been considered at all? should i fight against her will?
it is possible to fight and win her in the end. but at what price? i lose my identity, i lose my respect, i lose my home. is it worth it?
sacrifice, the most noble virtue. sacrifice not in vain.
a resolution was reached. the principles cannot be compromised. fight no further. no compromise.
in the end, the hurt does not matter. we stood our ground.

twist of fate

i am almost empty. the answer is staring me in the face. i surrender. stand true to what is right. no compromises. and if it robs me of my joy and hurt me endlessly, i cannot complain. this is my lot, this is my fortune, my fate. the Author knows best.
foolishness of the blind. search no more, want no more.
although i have fallen, there is no defeat.

ang republika ng pinas

walang kwenta. bulok. kanya kanya na lang tayo. tulungan? wag na, sarili mo nga di mo kayang tulungan. pamilya mo nga di mo kayang tulungan. puro kayo sat-sat. mga marunong.
hindi naman ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. kasi hindi naman ako umaasa.
republika ng mga asa. merong paraan pero wag na lang muna.

a special day

today is a special day, despite of not having accomplished what i set out to do. because a part of me restrained myself into doing something i am probably not prepared for. only time will tell the wisdom of His ways.
patience. patience. more patience.
foolishness of the blind.

seal

in order to protect integrity (who i am)
seals (symbolic incarnations of principles) are created.
some things must be sealed.
who is worthy to open the seal?

FORBIDDEN ACCESS

PRIVATE PROPERTY. FOR YOUR EYES ONLY.
let literature stay as literature.